I’m not sure how public this is suppose to be, but I wanted to thank St. Jude. Today is the 9th day of my novena to him, and even though my prayer wasn’t entirely granted for my boyfriend and I to get back together… things have gotten better between us. We talk, but he still has another girl, and still saying that we can’t get back together.
Today is the ninth day of the novena and I was hoping that we would get back together before i left for CA for a month. I was suppose to leave yesterday, but my flight was delayed and thus I had to stay in IN another night. I was hoping that maybe that was sign from St. Jude….but considering how things went today while talking I’m not sure if they will.
We’ll see I guess, I still believe in St. Jude….. I guess. I’m just not sure. I do know, for those reading this, that things have gotten A LOT better within our relationship since I started the novena.
….I started the novena on the 18th and we’ve talked everyday but one while i was saying it. And it wasn’t me that always initiated it.
St Jude, I BEG of you if you could please intervene on my life and have Bryan and I get back together before I leave I would be forever grateful. I promise to visit your shrine in San Fransisco, to pray to you everyday, to make a donation to your devotion, and to never sin in the relationship like i did before. With the right to end the relationship whenever you want and destroy me once again, I promise all this to you. This is the last day of your novena. Please intervene and give me what I am asking, I would be forever grateful and publish your request in largely. Please, I beg of you. St. Jude pray for me.
May 13- first fight started….following with a week of fighting
May 18 – we are officially done… he went to drill
May 24- went to his house while he was cleaning his bike–i imagine he’s hung out with her
May 24-29- he started hanging out with her- brought her to warsaw wtf
May 30- i find out, he comes to my house and tells me “he is lost” “she is nothing” she is just someone to hang out with bc he works 40 hours a week” asking me a ton of questions about california, etc
May 31- i right him a letter telling him i am okay with the break up, moving on etc
June 1- last time i saw him at my house
June 2- decided to enact no contact
June 4 – called and text to get my bike….he responded, but i never did after that
June 6- called me to ask about my bike. tagged pics of him and HER. referenced to me on Facebook
June 7- text me about mike’s open house. mar cell texted him and he said he was unhappy in our relationship for 2.5 years or longer….wtf
June 10- I called him from a private number. it hasn’t even been a week since my no contact. I’m pathetic. Hopefully he wasn’t able to figure that out.
June 11-uploaded dancing in the rain pics. Seriously? I deleted him from Facebook
June 14- texted/talked to him for awhile. decided to be friends said what she thinks doesn’t matter about us being friends. may stop by next weekend to bring mike his graduation present. also said he doesn’t want us talking to think it means something…..whatever
June 16/17- his mom refuses to meet J-dawg, alyssa wants to hang out, his parents want to hang out. FML
June 18 – text bryan to ask if he knew courtney seamans (chris’ ex) -least he knows we’re hanging out hahah
June 20- talked to mike about him telling bryan. he said that i need to talk to bryan, thinking about talking to him next weekend…we’ll see
June 21- Bryan text me a spiderman picture that says “better late than never” WTF does that mean?! we text throughout the day about him coming over. He was suppose to come tomorrow, but he car broke down…. who knows if i’ll get to see him before i leave. I’ll call him sunday if not
June 22- we talked on the phone for an hour it seemed like he was regretting it …texted for awhile as well. told me that he was deleting me from Facebook bc he can’t stand seeing me with other guys
June 23- shit it the fan again. Sean wanting to hang out, me telling him he can’t see mike and joe, his parents freaking out on him and him saying he doesn’t want to come home and he’s leaving indiana—also him and jessie went skydiving so precious–i blocked him from Facebook
and we’ve talked everyday since.